INTRO | PURPOSE
"I knew this was my purpose, because making people laugh was what made me feel the best about myself."
WHY THIS, WHY NOW
I’m here because I like to keep my Notes™ App clutter-free. I’m also at a place (25 years old) where I feel confident enough to post my written thoughts without fear of judgment.
I’ve been a planner ever since I can remember. I would take career placement tests for fun and list the right universities to apply to based on each desired career path. It seemed like everything had such a clear approach and I was fine with that, as long as I knew what it was that I wanted. Deciding to become an entertainer was easy: I was always loud and obnoxious and I knew this was my purpose, because making people laugh was what made me feel the best about myself.
After graduating with my BFA in Acting, I knew what the possibilities were. I would either
A) Make it big instantly and achieve great success overnight.
B) Have enough success to stay afloat as a freelance creative.
C) Realize I am unable to handle the harsh reality of what it’s like to be a full-time out-of-school adult with no mentor and eventually give up.
What happened to me after school was option (B). I was thriving in the non-union modeling and acting world! For a good year!! Then COVID happened and it was time to pivot. I booked some acting jobs during the pandemic but not enough to think I could sustain myself once unemployment ran out. I was also living in NYC, I couldn’t “move back home” during all this chaos. Thus began my deep dive into TV/Film production!
And then it hit me… I didn’t need to be one specific thing to feel like I was walking in my purpose, I was able to freelance as both on-camera talent and behind-the-scenes talent. Along with my new jobs and skillsets, I realized I could also simply write things that I wanted to act in. And since I live for memes and poorly photoshopped images, I might as well get into copywriting/content creation.
Writing is very hard and part of me wishes I had studied that for 4 years instead of mildly traumatizing scene study courses, but that’s what my Sunday zoom classes with The Barrow Group are for! My resume has the ~range~ now and I’m not afraid to call myself a multi-disciplinary creative. Younger me would lose it over how many W2’s and 1099’s I have. This is the life of an artistic hustler in New York City.
I’m not sure what Substack really is, but I’ve seen memes about it LMAO. I wonder if this community is an elevated tumblr or Reddit or twitter type of vibe. You have no real reason to care about subscribing to my journey, but I think if you like to be chronically online and appreciate some unique life experiences, you might enjoy reading what I have to say.
I’ll be posting weekly, probably. I want to challenge myself and put my brain to good use. This also feels therapeutic so I think I’ll keep it up. I’m in the middle of many big changes though, so don’t get any big ideas. Love you!
